May 31, 2012

  • [Adventures 2012]: Chia, Colombia

    Once upon a time... [Yes, that is how all the best stories begin, so this is your cue to grab that mug of coffee or glass of lemonade and get all cozy, cause this is gonna be good. I know, you've been waiting long enough. *grin*] I had a dream... [yes, also a wonderful start to the story] a dream of using photography in the mission field.

    The idea wasn't just a romantic notion of glamorizing missions, it was a genuine desire to capture the work of God in images to be able to share and use those to communicate to others the hand of Jesus at work around the world. It was a dream that was birthed quite a few years ago... I don't quite know when it happened, how or what triggered the notion. Isn't that often the case? It seems like it is a gradual working of the Spirit, birthing and growing desires in our hearts for the glory of Jesus and the benefit of the Kingdom. It's not about a time and a place as much as it is about being active and intentional with seeing it come to pass. 

    Years have come and gone. Both ideas and opportunities came and went with them. With each passing one, I felt my heart sigh, wondering if I was just "dreaming" up this idea, forcing the issue and wanting it too much. I trusting Jesus would make it clear in HIS time. Not mine. Yeah, that is the hard part, isn't it? Waiting. Waiting and, well, waiting... then last year, I felt Jesus nudging my heart to obtain my passport. 

    More waiting, and then A Tale of Two Cities happened this spring. 

    The dream was being birthed, it was happening... for real, I was going to Colombia!
    Many people are often given a burden for a specific country or people group... they have a passion for a certain language and their vision for missions is birthed out of that. It was not at all the case for me. I had countries I would loved to visit... places we had missionary friends who would welcome me with open arms anytime I wanted,  and honestly, it didn't matter where I went, as long as there were darling-orphaned-kiddos to love on. There were many places I thought about going... but Colombia was not one of them. I could write a blog post just on the reactions I got from people when they found out I was praying about, let alone had decided and felt God calling me to go to Colombia... yeah, it doesn't necessarily have the reputation for being the safest place in the world, however... the safest place in the world is being in the center of His will and I knew without a shadow of a doubt that Jesus was leading me on this trip.  

    So... I've been to Colombia and back again.
    So... I've fallen in love with Colombia [South America in general] and want to go back. 

    "It's like America, but South!"

    There was eleven of us on the team. 
    Team Leaders:: Daniel and Elizabeth 
    Photography Leader:: Christina 
    Photographers:: Marrissa. Greg. Ashlyn and myself 
    Team People:: Daniel D. Brandon. Ashley and Benjamin.

    Five of our team members [Christina, Brandon, Benjamin, Daniel and Ashley Dickson] are siblings, so that was pretty awesome . Especially since the latter four are a fabulous, and I mean fabulous string quartet and they brought their instruments. Within the first day, we were pretty well meshed as a group. Kinda like family. Halfway through the trip, the Dickson guys decided to adopt me into the family and make me an adopted sister. I think that was after the fact that I declared that I can take faster showers than my brothers, and that girls do not need to take forever getting ready... hehe. 

    Sunday was a day of worshipping in two languages [that will bring you to tears, completely], exploring, meeting fellow Believers, laughter, good conversations, taking pictures, trying all kinds of meats for dinner [including goat] and settling into our home for the next three days... a Catholic Seminary that rather reminded us of the cemetery scenes in Sound of Music. Without boring you with details think of:: singing monks, flying cockroaches, dark hallways and echoing rooms, yeah. Let your imagination take flight. But it made for tons of memories, promise!

    Monday the adventure began.
    Monday, I fell in love with Colombian kiddos. 

    We taught at a public school, nestled in outskirts of Chia, Colombia... located with an incredible view of the mountains. 
    For three days, we taught. We loved. We smiled. We hugged. We laughed. We took pictures... We attempted to pick up more Spanish and make out broken English. 

    We photographers taught the "English" class of all grades all three days. Basically, class was 45 minutes long [though we quickly learned that changes as well as the order of class on a regular basis] And within that time, we would teach a basic photography lesson and then split the class up into three groups and give them five minutes of taking pictures [we had ten digital cameras we bought and brought down with us] five minutes of listening to one of us photographers give a photo-story and five minutes of review of other images. We did that every 45 minutes from like 9am - 3pm all three days. It was pretty intense but crazy amazing. Key words were: flexibility. Smile. Enthusiasm. Willingness. Prayer... mhmm!

    I learned that hugs have no language barriers. 
    I wished I had made myself memorize more spanish phrases. 
    I taught about Jesus through photography, but through my actions. 
    I realized in a deeper way that hugs and smiles have no language barriers.
    I wanted to stay there and love on, pour into and disciple all 600+ kids at Sherwood School.
    I longed to give them truth... truth about relationships, truth about love, truth about life, truth about  
    I prayed that Jesus would protect, guard and nourish every seed planted in the hearts of the kiddos.

    It was incredible, so many Jesus moments. Like the time that one of the teachers didn't want us at the school because we were "sharing the gospel" which didn't reflect the school's views... and a bunch of meetings and randomness with that, which turned into an incredible blessing a day later when that same teacher completely became one of our biggest fans when the Dickson's brought their instruments and played wonderful classical music which this teacher happens to adore. Who would have known? God did. Then the moment when I was giving a photo-testimony about how God works in our lives which was supposed to be five minutes long and I ended up having the kids for fifteen minutes and God gave me other amazing stories to share of HIS goodness, His faithfulness and His personal workings... some of the kids were in tears.

    One of the best moments was on our second day, one of our crazy-Red-bull-tenth graders [the teacher called them that, and we found out why] left class and yelled: "This class is SO AWESOME!!!" With his arms in the air for enthusiasm and exclamation. It was hilarious. Oh, to have had it on camera. hehehe. In case were were in doubt, apparently at least some of the kids were getting something out of it. Leaving was difficult for me... in many ways, I felt like we had just gotten started and it was already ending. I wanted to continue to build these relationships and love these kiddos more. They showered us with cards, notes, wrote their emails in our notebooks, asked for pictures and more pictures and asked over and over: "Do you have facebook"? And then we had to leave. 

    In three short days, my life had been changed. Looking into the dark-chocolate eyes of countless kiddos... your life would be changed too. 
    These kids were not orphans, nor did they seem necessarily needy [although compared to the abundant-accessive-wealth of America, the entire country of Colombia seemed needy in ways] but they were needy for Jesus. For real, abundant life... 
    Who will tell them about Jesus... that He is alive! That He loves them! That He has a plan for their lives! Who will love them and show them Jesus?

    I know that was our desire. I pray that it will make a difference, not just now, but for eternity. 
    It isn't just a "missions trip" issues... I know that is my entire life desire, to make Jesus look good... to represent Him well and show Him to tall those lost and dying around us. They are everywhere, at Wal-mart, driving on the highway, at the Doctors office, at Panera Bread... in your work place. Needy souls are everywhere, do they see something in you they want... something that is Jesus?

    “Trying to do the Lord's work in your own strength is the most confusing, exhausting, and tedious of all work. But when you are filled with the Holy Spirit, then the ministry of Jesus just flows out of you." ― Corrie Ten Boom

    More adventures coming soon!
    This was just the beginning...

    -KM  

    Here is a video interview of one of our photography kiddos. 
    [Ignore the annoying parrot voice in the background... hehe] 

    This is what it was like to arrive every morning...

     
     


    I think they were just a little excited about getting to take pictures... 


    Oh, those boys... my heart completely melts. The one in front was so precious, eager to learn and eager to please. 
     


    Yeah, this was pretty much happiness... *sigh*
     


    This is my friend, Jhon Steven. He was not in our photography classes, but he spoke English quite well and would come up to our classroom every chance he got to come talk with me and practice his English. His smile melted me into a puddle. We would chat and talk and he would tell me how if I came back to Colombia he would teach me Spanish. He asked me about America and if I liked Colombia better? He wouldn't let me take his picture, but finally agreed to take one with me. I pray that Jesus works in Jhon Steven's life and makes him into a mighty man of God for the Kingdom and the Gospel. I miss that boy.
     

    These girls became our biggest "fan club", each day when our van would pull up to the school, they would lead the kids in cheers of: "Kristi! Kristi! Greg! Greg! Christina! Christina!" and whichever other names they could remember at the moment. Then, like Jhon Steven they were not in our photography class, but would come visit every opportunity they had. They spoke very little English, but they were thrilled when we signed their notebooks, smiled and hugged them. Their smiles made my heart go pitter patter. 

    [Thank you, Greg for the last two images!] 

    More to come soon...

May 28, 2012

  • [Sneak Peek]: Matthew and Rebecca

    They were just a wee-bit-excited about getting married, I think. *grin*
    Matthew and Rebecca are such a darling-fun-quirky couple... can't wait to share more.

    Today, I am remembering with gratitude all those who have given their lives so we might have freedom...
    it is the ultimate sacrifice. And thank you, Jesus, that you have given us complete freedom through your sacrifice. ♥

    "None of us lives to himself, and none of us dies to himself. If we live, we live to the Lord, and if we die, we die to the Lord; so then, whether we live or whether we die, we are the Lord's. For to this end Christ died and lived again, that he might be Lord both of the dead and of the living..." - Romans 14:7-9 

    -KM 

     

May 24, 2012

  • [Real Life]: Conviction

    I've been convicted. 
    A whole lot the last few weeks.

    I've been convicted about being convicted.

    Yes. There is such a thing... because really, there is a huge distance between being convicted/realizing your sin and actually repenting and changing from the conviction of the Holy Spirit. It seems rather "simple"... just confess, repent and pray for Jesus to change you. But it takes a soft heart, fully surrendered.

    It takes willingness. 

    I've been convicted about... holding on and surrender. I've been convicted about self-consumption. I've been convicted about allowing self-circumstances and everything in life  to rule me instead of just gazing upon the beauty, perfection and amazingness of Jesus? Why is the flesh so strong and my spirit so weak!

    My blog has been rather silent the last few weeks... not because I don't have things to share, but because I am not certain how to share them. Life is so deep. Things are never how they seem... there is always something deeper going on. Always. I saw a phrase a while ago: "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."

    I am fighting a hard battle.
    Love... what is it really?
    Hope seems like a foreign word. 
    Prayer is routine instead of delight.
    Dreams are foggy and hard to discern.
    People bring pain and joy. Why does it seem to be more the former. 
    Possessions are often so unnecessary and yet I allow them to dictate life.  
    Physically, my body took another bad turn and don't know why. [It will be three years this June.] 
    Emotionally, I wonder about decisions, my heart and wonder if I can step out in faith.
    Spiritually, I love my Jesus and yet, He seems distant, which means one thing...

    I moved. 
    Not He.

    As I was attempting to go to sleep the other evening, my heart heavy with frustrations and cares, I sighed: Jesus, are You going to do anything about it? There was a barrier between us... I didn't like it. I wanted it gone and yet, I didn't know how it had come to be there! Have you ever been in that place, dear one? Loving Jesus, believing truth and yet... something isn't right? I sighed again and turned in my bed, longing for sleep and it wouldn't come. 

    Not till I had the courage to ask: Jesus, what is it?
    He always has answers. Always. The secret is to simply: ask. 


    How patient He is. How wonderful. How kind. How gentle. How... love filled. 
    It was one of those moments when I really wanted to know the answer, but kinda really didn't. 
    But the answer came, it always does, if we have the heart to hear... 


    Startled... my mind started rushing through all the things, decisions, and life the last howevermany weeks trying to remember what it was He was referring to... it only took seconds. Ugh! Jesus... not that? I thought we already dealt with that! I am not ready to make that move, that choice, that decision... we are leaving it on the shelf, remember? Just speaking about it, I could feel fear pushing against my heart, like a river held back by a dam... ready to burst. We aren't going there, Jesus. I can't.

    I really couldn't.
    If you knew, you would understand.
    It would mean letting go of my security, my walls built up so well, my entire view of life from the captain seat.
    It would mean pain, or at the very least, risk of pain... then I remembered: 
    The only part of me that can be injured is the part of me that has not died and been surrendered to Jesus.

    Breathless I whispered: 
    I just can't. 

    But, oh...the incredibly freeing truth:
    No, I can't... but HE can.

    Jesus, I want to obey. Please lead my heart to obey.
    Willingness. That is what it takes. 

    And it is always a question of... trust. 

    Answer: Yes!
    Come what may... but Jesus, I WILL trust you. 
    That is when rest comes to the soul... when we choose to trust, not in ourselves, circumstances or situations... but in Jesus.

    Just Jesus. 


    "It is what Jesus is, not what we are, that gives rest to the soul." -Charles Spurgeon
     
    -KM

May 8, 2012

  • [Adventures 2012]: Meet Me in St. Louis

    I love adventures.
    Especially with amazing friends!

    Over half of our team from Colombia [it helps that four are in one family] met up in St. Louis over the weekend to catch up, make memories and spend quality time! It was an incredible time. Seriously. From delightful piano recitals to squishing in cars... fudge and food to walks around the park... from random public swimming pools [weird stories] to surviving the heat... uncontrollable laughter and long [very long] deep conversations... watching Captain America and quoting movies. How nice it was to get to know each other outside of missions. Sometimes it can be a little awkward getting together with people you've only met once in another situation, but this was absolutely not the case. There is something amazing about being "family in Jesus". 

    I am so thankful for these people. For life and friendship in Jesus...

    Meanwhile, I'm sure you are wondering what happened with the photo essay contest... I ended up winning second place (I lost 1st place by 5 votes, so it was super close!) and therefore have $200 more dollars towards another missions trip! So that is super exciting. Yeah, more adventures in the future... YES. 

    Another random adventure occurred before leaving on Saturday for MO... on Friday evening was our yearly banquet for Life for Life Centers. My amazing cousin Ben [also one of my best friends] drove down from Chicago, last minute to come with since we had an extra ticket!!! I called him at about 1pm and he asked me three questions: "Where is it? What time is it? What color are you wearing?" Four hours later, he was in downtown Indianapolis, looking so sharp and matching me! Yeah, he is amazing. I am so thankful for him. My dress was also special, it was one I designed that my friend Robin sewed for me, so that was very special. I love it. 

    Life is continuing to move forward at a rate faster than I can keep up with so it seems, yet I am learning to abide and rest and take everything one day at a time. My health continues to be a challenge and yet, Jesus is working. Life has so many questions... yet, Jesus has answers. My heart wonders and waits and watches... and I lift my eyes to Jesus. 

    Today, John Piper posted something that really changed my heart. If you want some conviction and need of a kleenex, watch this ten minute video.

    "When God is magnified, fear is gone." - Dr. James MacDonald

    -KM  

     

    The Banquet::

    Gary and Christy Ripperger... two of the most precious people I know. 

     

    Adventures in St. Louis::

May 2, 2012

  • [Photo Essay]: Update and Finalist

    Sooooo... good-happy-wonderful-news!!
    Two of my images were chosen and are in the finalist category for Global Encounters Photo Essay Contest!!

     

    If you have a facebook account, I would love for you to go and VOTE for your favorite image!
    Friday the votes will be added up and the winners announced! Super super excited. *grin* Yay, Jesus!

    Meanwhile, I am currently at my office-away-from-home [Panera], as we are without internet since our house was struck by lightning yesterday... yes, really and truly I can now check "being in a house struck with lightning" off my bucket list... except it wasn't on there in there first place! Thank you, Jesus for Your protection and minimal damage. Though our chimney is pretty bad. [Yes, pictures at some point, possibly]. Let's just say life is never, seldom EVER boring. Today, Dad is starting to get people out to the house to work on the damage and hopefully, get internet working back at the house... interesting how hard it is to live without it sometimes. Especially for littlest brother who has online classes.

    Anyway, here is your "random" post for the week, friends. May you love Him more with all your heart... like, all! Completely! Totally! Wholly! Fully!

    "I have learned that while those who speak about one’s miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more." -C.S. Lewis 

    -KM 

May 1, 2012

  • [Senior.ness 2012]: Olivia Ruth

    Happy... May!! Wait, whaaattt? Since when!? Wow... is anyone else feeling like its still March, let alone April? Somehow, April just disappeared! Now May is here and going to completely fly by as May usually does. Graduations, Weddings, weekend trips, Senior shoots, lovely weather, etc. Yeah, its going to be June before we know it and then trip to England!! Ahh! Just one thing at a time. The last few weeks I've continued to work on my ever-growing-to-do-lists and am slowly but surely making progress. Today I think it is working on tackling writing all my thank you notes... [60+] someone laughingly said it was good preparation for "wedding thank you's". Oh, goodness. 

    How delightful it has been to have images to edit again... I think I probably said that already, but it is worth saying again. I love capturing and then creating beautiful images. My favorites are couples in love... but second favorites are most assuredly Seniors! It's not only fun to get to spend-one-on-one time learning about them, but capturing who they are, discovering their personality and excitement because of graduation! 

    My shoot with Olivia, was no exception. What a fun and laughter-filled few hours! ♥ 
    I met Olivia several years ago, she was in one of the musicals I directed... we always enjoyed good conversations together. I so appreciated Olivia's heart for Jesus, missions, serving others and being real. 

    Olivia loves to have fun, she smiles a lot and enjoys life thoroughly!! :) This is obviously reflected in her Senior pictures. When Olivia emailed me about using her "art" work in her Senior pictures and possibly setting up a "gallery" in the woods, I was doing happy dances on the SPOT! Can we do that? Of course we can!! It was a blast. I love it when my clients get super creative about their shoots. Thanks for the amazing time, Olivia. You were a complete natural! 

    "Every command God gives you is to protect you from second best." - Chip Ingram

    -KM 

         

         

     

April 28, 2012

  • [Colombia Photo Essay]: Eyes

    Global Encounters, the organization I went to Colombia with, is having a:

     Photo Essay Contest!
     
    It is using a photo (or six photos, called a photo essay) to explain what we think: "Missions is...."
    It is really thrilling for me, not only to get to use the images from Colombia but also to enter my FIRST ever photo contest!!
    The judging took place last night... we are awaiting to hear who the finalists are, and for people to vote on them.

    This was one of my several entries, (yes, you could do more than one) but my only photo essay.  

    It was such a joy to think about captions for my different photos and use the images so dear to my heart.
    I pray you are blessed! So enjoy yet another preview of Colombia. What I believe is the heart of missions. 

    ‎"And after you have suffered a little while, Kristi, the God of all grace [Who imparts all blessing and favor],
    Who has called you to His [own] eternal glory in Christ Jesus, will Himself complete and make you what
    you ought to be, establish and ground you securely, and strengthen, and settle you." -1 Peter 5:10

    -KM  

     

April 27, 2012

  • [Baby.ness]: Selena - One Year

    Aw, time goes by too quickly! 
    Wayyyyy too quickly. My birthday-baby-girl Selena is ONE now! Yeahhh. I know.

    A few weeks after her birthday, we got together to take her one-year-old pictures. It is still amazing to me how much little ones change and how fast. Selena says words now, she is walking, she has a little attitude and a precious heart... she is hilarious and quite darling. Robin has been teaching her "sign language" for certain words like: please, more, thank you. Which is so fun for me, since we did that with my littlest-brother. Ahhh, the memories. Selena was in a squirmy mood on our shoot, but we still managed to capture some rather darling moments, don't you think? *smiles*

    It was also very special to be able to attend the baby dedication for Selena at church a few weeks ago. I cried. Yes. I did. 
    I am reminded what a blessing and gift life is. How much one life can change countless others around it. 

    Enjoy the last of Selena's Baby.ness images... 

    "I believe prayerless Christians are the most dangerous thing of our time." - Corrie ten Boom

    -KM 
     

     

  • [Birthday.ness]:

    So April is kinda a special month. 
    Like anniversary-of-my-grand-entrance-to-the-world month.

    I had arrived home from Colombia several days before my birthday...anticipating so much, knowing Jesus has been preparing my heart for "Spring" and a new season for a l-o-n-g time now. There were many thoughts going through my head on my birthday, not the least of which was constant thoughts of my Jesus since it was Good Friday. Oh, Jesus... how I love you. What a privilege to have my birthday on the day you gave all... for ME. May my heart always be captivated by Your love. Always. As it was a work/school day, the family was occupied, so I spend the morning being an "adult" [paying bills, replying to emails, catching up on things from being gone] and then went out for the afternoon to one of my favorite places... a paint-your-own-pottery shop [it is rather darling] in the downtown of the city we live in. 

    There is something so delightful and refreshing for me about creating... on this day, especially painting. Funny, I still need to go pick up my mug. hehe. Anyway, as I was thinking about a "design" for my tea-cup, the word "hope" came to mind as it has been a theme in the last year. Hope went on the saucer of my mug. Then I thought about a quote [yes, indeed.] and this one is so poignant: "For promise always outlives pain." - Calvin Miller 

    I thought a lot on my birthday. 
    I prayed a lot too. 

    The older I get, the more I realize how far I am from Jesus and yet, how much more I desire Him. It is that paradox that A.W. Tozer says, that we are "filled and yet left hungry for more". The older I get, the more I wonder how I can make thing so complicated when it is really quite "simple" - trust and obey. Jesus comes through every time. I have no need to doubt, worry or fear... and yet, I do. Oh, for grace to trust HIM more. I was reading journal entries from the last year and rather amused at my perspective on many things, also my lack of understanding then, which is so clear to me now. I smile, because He is so patient, so kind, so wonderful. 

    About a month before my birthday, Jesus gave me a truth: "I am enough, Kristi. You have nothing to prove." My spiritual pride and my desire to prove my self-worth robs me of the joy and freedom in the Gospel! There is nothing I can do to add or detract from the amazing-wonderful-freely-given blood of Jesus!! Nothing. Ever. The end. I simply need to accept it and live it. My prayer has been: "Jesus, I want to live as if I have nothing to prove and nothing to lose." Freedom from caring about what others think, liberation from fear and doubt -- completely joy in knowing it is all, always, forever... just Jesus. 
     
    As I wonder what the future holds and contemplate decisions, desires and dilemmas... my heart knows that Jesus is good and He does good [Psalm 119:68]. 
    So, let the next year of Adventures begin... 

    "Let Kristi, the beloved of the Lord rest secure in Him, for He shields her all day long, and the one the Lord loves rests between His shoulders." - Deut 33:12

     ♥ KM

    P.S. - I have had the joy to hear this song sung by two choirs in the last several weeks, it is amazing!
    I cry every time. This recording isn't so great, but you at least get the idea. Truth... "It is enough! Jesus died it is enough!" 

    My dear, adopted sister Rebecca made Lord Rillian a Tuxedo and bow tie for my birthday! Eekkkkk!! He is now all ready for England! 

    The most epic birthday plates-napkins EVER. The end. Thank you, Mommy!

    Mongolian Grill is amazing... one of the few places that are good for people-with-allergies-who-can't-eat-much.

         

     

     

April 23, 2012

  • [Senior.ness]: Courtney Marie

    Last Wednesday, [Yes, I know... Colombia is coming, really. truly. Promise.] I had the joy of shooting my first Senior session of 2012! It was a chilly, but lovely Spring morning. And it was even more delightful to be able to shoot at the Indianapolis White River Gardens and Zoo. Such lovely settings! I've known Courtney for quite a few years. She was one of my students in the theater productions I helped my friend Becca co-direct for two years.

    When I think of Courtney the word gentle comes to mind. She is full of grace and joy and loves to laugh. I appreciate Courtney's heart for Jesus and genuine desire to live out her faith in daily life not just in words. Courtney is a wonderful sister, friend and has a easy going sweetness. We had bunches of fun taking her pictures downtown. The dreamy-creaming lighting and Courtney is completely beautiful and so natural in front of the camera. I hardly had to pose her and when I did... she went right along with it, making it look way too easy. 

    Congratulations, Courtney! Can't wait to see what Jesus has in store for you in the future.

    "The Gospel frees you not to be a 'better than' person... but it frees you to lay down your life for everyone." - Pastor Mark Vroegop

    -KM